A Spear in the Back

All day long my lower back, right on my spine has been killing me. Like really hurting. I rebuked and everything I knew to do. Then I had the thought that this was a word and not for me.

So I was speaking in a group tonight. After I finished sharing and everyone was leaving, I remembered the back pain. I asked anyone in the group if they had back pain. This woman immmediately said yes and her friends started laughing - she was taking shots to deal with pain. So a couple of us prayed for her. She said it felt some better. I wasn't satisfied with that so I waited after the rest of the time when I could talk more with her.

As I waited to talk to her, I prayed that the LORD would show me what was going on. The LORD showed me a huge spear in this woman's back. It happened in a scenario like the one in Rick Joyner's Final Quest of a group of glorious warriors go out to fight too quickly and getting ambushed from the rear by the enemy. I sensed this woman had eagerly gone out and had been wounded.

Later, when I did get the chance to pray for her, I didn't share all that I had seen. Instead, I told her that the LORD loved her eagerness. I prayed a cloak of humility over her and then I pulled out the spear that was stuck in her back.

She was very grateful and I was ready for my back to stop hurting.

Don't Forget Worship and the Word

I wish I could report a few great healing stories. I have definitely been praying for healing, but I have encountered a lot more resistance. As I was talking to a friend, it seems this might be a season of greater discernment as we are sensing the different elements in the spirit realm.

I laid hands on a couple of different people this past week and prayed for their healing. I immediately felt a negative force coming against me. Of course, this is not surprising, but I did sense it and most of the time I don't really sense the demonic.

This week, I learned that it is sometimes important to shake off what the enemy has tried to throw on me. 2 Elements have come together for me this week:

Worship and Word
I am listening over and over to Joshua Mills' CD "Praise Changes the Atmosphere" and re-reading Rick Joyner's "Final Quest".

Keep Swinging.

Power in Prayer

Today I was listening to Todd Bentley's sermon "Power in Prayer" about how he started to pray and feel the presence and know the Holy Spirit. This message really set a fire in my heart to know the Holy Spirit and press in to come to know the Holy Spirit more. At the end of the sermon there was a time for prayer and pressing in, so I went for it, more so then ever before and cried to God with the desperation I have to know him REALLY. I should mention right now that I was driving home at 7:30pm at this time and I am very thankful the presence didn't knock me out as he has been known to do. A couple minutes into desperately seeking God's presence my right hand started tingling from my finger tips to my wrist. I was very excited to feel God in such a tangible way in my body, in a way he knew I would recognize. I asked the Holy Spirit to increase it and my left hand started to tingle but never was as much as my right hand. I got to my destination in about 20 minutes and did not want to stop but of course had to stop. As I am typing this about 30 minutes later my hand is still slightly tingling. I thank God so much for the grace to show me that he wants to put his Holy Spirit in me and on me. He is so faithful to answer a heart that is ernestly seeking him. God is not a God that does not want to give his presence, it His delight to fill his children with his love. I believe that it is our duty to stop trying so hard to please God with our lives and ministry, and to start seeking for him and only him. We need to learn that the only thing that will satisfy this burning hunger in our souls is his presence. Ministry, fruit and all the glory God has promised us will be there when we truly abide in His presence and learn to let go, and let God.